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this newfound validation to just wake up everyday and try and try feels rejuvenating. i'm so glad I feel this.  you'll get through it baby girl, get through it better and stronger 💪💪. you already know the highest, healthiest and happiest version of yourself and you're the only one that's stopping yourself from being her.  these people are petty. and in the process you will have to unlearn. unlearn a lot. but you'll still be you 🩹.  and always remember baby girl, a girl who was born to do big cannot let small distractions get to her.  fake it till you make it ✨. love you 🩷.

My mom gets mad at me when I don’t say anything but she cuts me off and gets mad at me when I do say something.  How can you undo this kind of damage if you can’t afford therapy? How can you heal your mind after it’s been altered so much from living like a prey animal? I’m trying so hard to be functional. My parents have mellowed me out.  I have lost the ability to cry unless I’m truly overwhelmed or upset, there are times where i so desperately want to cry but I longer can There are so many things that I think I should be feeling, but I never do. My best friend could be crying, something terrible could happen to them, but I won't feel anything. No guilt. No empathy. No kindness. It's gotten to the point where I study people in real life, people in movies, people everywhere just so I can fake emotions. All because I was told early on in my life that "feelings don't matter. Only mine do", "keep crying and I'll give you a fucking reason to cry about" T

I think Jo never loved Laurie. They were friends, he loved her, she didn't. Jo always said she didn't want to be a wife but I think it's because she was scared and insecure about it. As she grows she starts to think no one will ever love her and she truly will never be a wife and then decides to write the letter to Laurie, cuz at least he loves her right? But she doesn't love him, not that way. She was just scared of being alone forever. Amy and Laurie are a lovely couple. I truly believe Laurie and Jo were platonic soulmates whereas Amy and Laurie are romantic soulmates When Jo writes her love letter to Laurie she says “My dear Teddy, I miss you more than I can express. I used to think that the worst fate was to be a wife, I was young and stupid. But now I have changed. The worst fate is to live my life without you in it.” I think Jo finds it hard to express her feelings without going against her beliefs/ideas about what women should and shouldn’t be in the world. Like