so hi honey youre done with your exams and youve fucked all of em up especially maths which was today youll probably get in seventies and then cry but what you sow, so you reap babe. and i am very tired and my head is throbbing with pain and i do not feel good but its all part of the experience that is what i keep telling myself and its all gonna be okay in the end babe. be more kind to yourself and be sweet and frail like a feather. 

i am back because i forgot to write something which i feel is quite important firstly i want you to improve on your speaking skills. i wanna curse you with obnoxious english words but i just cannot because i just am not recalling any of them. and improve your memorizing and recalling ability honey because this is not gonna work. 

and the most important thing is that you may forget this the reason why you did not perform well in these exams is because everybody kept telling you even your family members and parents that you would anyways get straight 100s and told you not to study and you fucking obeyed them like their fucking slave. 

so honey it is not them it is you and fuck them and their stupid thinking and be kind to yourself honey. one day at a time.