i am very malleable person you see, i blend into things very easily almost omnipotently. i have been having a lot of fun these days and my company at school isn't the best. but what to do. i am not very good at hiding things too. i used to be but idk where that part of me went. i hate it at school but i keep reminding myself that I AM NOT A BAD PERSON JUST BECAUSE I DO NOT TALK TO PEOPLE I DO NOT LIKE. and also stop living inside your head and thinking bad about others. because they're gonna grow anyways and you will be stuck in your miserable state. grow muskan. this is the time to grow and you know it. please do not regret this late. and i know that you will not because you already have achieved and it is already yours. the fame, the wealth, the money, the success, your dream life, modelling, everything, you already have it, you just have to sustain it.
this year was the worst year of my life. but hey i have still got 17 days left but i do not intend to make it better. let it be. i hate my friends so much. and i miss daksh so much. i hate my friends but act all giddy around them and love daksh but pretend to be stern with him. bu they daksh hurt me. even though he has his own family issues he should not impose that on other people. my heart goes out to him i empathise with him and i yearn for him. yearn for our talks. no matter how much he gaslighted me i enjoyed it. but i hope he never makes contact ever again. and i should turn into a lesbian or asexual. idk. because men ew no. i hate how my dad treats my mom. i cannot bear someone treating me like that. my mom should leave him. even though he was caught in infidelity, he has not changed. i still remember that morning where my mum was crying and all family was there except my sister. oh gosh. but worse stuff happen to women outside too. but good stuff too. my only goal in life will ...
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