safe space

guys am i having my gay awakening wtf. why am i not being attracted to boys that internal fear of being perceived by boys is going away??? am i maturing into a woman or am i starting to like girls?? idk. maybe i am bi but omg yes ofc i must be bi bc of harry styles 

like i just wanna run away, live in some countryside, be a supermodel and eat good food and dance with pretty boys but marry a woman and live with her and maybe raise kids, idk about that part.

welcome to the season where everyone hates you and guess whatt??? you hate yourself too!! ugh just feel like everyone has such high expectations from me and im just being so damn rude to everyone like i dont wanna but cant help it:))

hi so muskan tomorrow is officially twelfth grade after summer. it will be your last first day after summer break! so relish it. every moment of it. every interaction. be you. do not care about others(the teachers maybe) but you are THE SCHOOL CAPTAIN SO ACT LIKE ONE WALK LIEK ONE AND TALK LIKE ONE. behave as the girl you visualise harmonise and look up to. and please please be kind to everyone especially yourself. and about the best and the highest grades? you already have them. you always get the best and the highest grades so easily. and it is the last year of school so please study well you will never get these marks again so i know youw ill study because you have already topped with 98% in isc boards and secured a well-deserved seat at nlsiu bangalore. and yeah you took your first mock yesterday(you scored 40/120, but hey you had no prior practice, so well done) and yeah just study, work hard each and every day study accounts every day. be consistent. love you so much. 

lol i lost the portal to this blog. like when i typed 'a' the first link that came through was ashoka university lo. i am thinking about unis a lot and i am hell bent on law as of now. but i am also thinking of psychology and therapy and ca but idk law seems so societally appealing but omg 5 yrs and idk if i will even like the subject. i want to do psychology!!! but my mom is idk. i have told her already but she hasnt been to happy. and i am so damn hella confused because i have got school and stuff and idk!!!! but i am already a supermodel and have the best and the highest grades so woohoo.  but boys. omg. yall confuse me so much. boys yall will be the end of me. i never want to marry if i do i shall marry a girl and raise a hella girlboss. if that aint what i getiting i aint want nothing. boys scarre me. i dont like yall but i crave yalls validation haha. i think i am bi. i am so confused. i wanna do so much but nothing at the same. all i do is play penguin diner on my laptop...