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lol i lost the portal to this blog. like when i typed 'a' the first link that came through was ashoka university lo. i am thinking about unis a lot and i am hell bent on law as of now. but i am also thinking of psychology and therapy and ca but idk law seems so societally appealing but omg 5 yrs and idk if i will even like the subject. i want to do psychology!!! but my mom is idk. i have told her already but she hasnt been to happy. and i am so damn hella confused because i have got school and stuff and idk!!!! but i am already a supermodel and have the best and the highest grades so woohoo. 
but boys. omg. yall confuse me so much. boys yall will be the end of me. i never want to marry if i do i shall marry a girl and raise a hella girlboss. if that aint what i getiting i aint want nothing. boys scarre me. i dont like yall but i crave yalls validation haha. i think i am bi. i am so confused. i wanna do so much but nothing at the same. all i do is play penguin diner on my laptop waiting for somethign intrinsic belief to rise and take me hostage lol. 
i have the best and the highest grades. 

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