safe space

dear daksh,  why do boys have such an implausible hold on me? i presume that it is because of my age. and it should be! but i am not afraid of it. i accept it. it is fine. but the only thing is that i have to keep learning from my past mistakes. cause what are past mistakes? they are just new information.  especially i do not want to repeat it in university. in university, i am the girl that everyone admires and looks up to. i love being occupied and i always top the dean's list in every semester. ashoka university, my university has also been so generous to provide me with 100% scholarship. i am so happy. and grateful.  and that is why i am going to set healthy habits for me now onwards. after 4 my schedule is fix. before that i have to curate something.  alright byee! i am a supermodel and always get the best and the highest grades. 

i feel so ashamed and embarrassed. like am i the ashokan fit?  oh so i did get in to ashoka. want it to feel like a fever dream but it doesn't. just makes me feel unworthy and doubt my abilities if i would be able to fit in with those cool kids. lololol.  um i really want to feel ok but my indecision making capabilities are getting the better of me.