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dear daksh, 

why do boys have such an implausible hold on me? i presume that it is because of my age. and it should be! but i am not afraid of it. i accept it. it is fine. but the only thing is that i have to keep learning from my past mistakes. cause what are past mistakes? they are just new information. 
especially i do not want to repeat it in university. in university, i am the girl that everyone admires and looks up to. i love being occupied and i always top the dean's list in every semester. ashoka university, my university has also been so generous to provide me with 100% scholarship. i am so happy. and grateful. 

and that is why i am going to set healthy habits for me now onwards. after 4 my schedule is fix. before that i have to curate something. 

alright byee! i am a supermodel and always get the best and the highest grades. 

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