daksh, hey. umm i have got 10 days left in this year well a week exactly before i leave and i want to make the very most of it. today i went down an internet rabbit-hole and stalked your dad. hm. he has might i say, quite a few cases on him or something like that. i hope you are doing okay saw that you changed your whatsapp dp, well kept a new one. andd so yeah you must be doing well only. what about me? well i gotta study and not get distracted especially by you which i do not but when i do, you eat me up. i am tryna hold back the power. i am tryna act very well and i think i am doing a pretty decent job. okay bye i shall go and study accounts now.
i think about dying too often. like if i were to end my life sure, there would be people who would care. but, would i care about them caring for me? no. and i am sure that i will never find that typa love and it is okay i am not destined for it. i am destined for people to walk all over me and me standing there with a beguiling smiling face. and i will never be satisfied with myself. and omg muskan you have to come over hating yourself. i think it is tied to my daddy issues and that one girl somehow but idk muskan they do not govern you. i have been hating myself so much these days. it is unhealthy. but im just a teen. and i do. i really do want to make the best of these few days i have. and i know i wont survive past twenty. and i hate it everyday here. the hope that the coming say will be even worse is accepted. you will never be the light muskan maybe the people pleaser one yeah never the badass and that's okay it is written in your you cant do anything but die as soon as possib...
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