i know that nobody really here is there to have your back and probably no one ever will be i think i am one of those persons who will always be alone no matter what and there might be people coming and going out of my life, i know i will try to hold on to them maybe even force them to have me by their back and get close to them, help them, show empathy, drain all my energy on them, cry because of them because i really do i really do care. and then in a snap of a finger, they will be out and non-existent and none of this will ever even matter but just in that moment it feels like no matter how many bad days you have had and will have you hope for that one single good day but babe let me remind you that they are gonna get you nothing, you need to find happiness from within yourself, from your actions, your thoughts. overthinking and creating a godly image of someone person will not stop them from treating you like shit. so babe know your worth because they dont they never will and nobody ever will. this is especially for me because over the years i have come to the conclusion that i will not have successful relationships. After all, i am not destined for them. i will always be the overthinker the one who is in the corner. smiling but tears are on the edge of her eyes.

this really is the truth i dont think i will have the one person whom i can call mine. and as much as it hurts they won't hurt you in the end you yourself will hurt yourself.

and maybe that is why i am here to tell you i will always be there for you, this post will and my undying love too.

so babe you have no choice but to take comfort in the fact that you will always be lonely and independent of how people perceive you.