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um so basically the thought that her been stopping me from studying is that people who study well/ toppers never actually excel in life later on. 

but right now is what I have so it's okay i think i should definitely study and enjoy it. because it is one thing they can't take away from me. also I am totally not becoming dumber day by day. I wanna do so much but nothing at the same time. It scares me so much you know. i am a very fearful person. in the sense that i fear stuff not people fearing me lol the people pleaser in me would crawl and die. and i am seventeen!! such a pretty age. 

my phone is an addiction. a very unhealthy one. bye. 

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