dear daksh, 

i am starting this new series named 'dear dakh' entries where i will be addressing my daily life and its affairs. i do not want it to be mechanical oh lord. and this i am doing it inspired by myself, actually. reading through my old journals reminds me of how naive and good i was. and i wanna be her so bad. i could fall asleep to my writing. 

contrary to what i wrote in my first stanza, i want to state that i might not write about my everyday life. i will just write something for the sake of writing. cause writing is fun and i want to pursue it. speaking of writing, reading, 

i wanna get back to reading so damn bad!!!!!

ugh i literally cannot get myself to read anything. from lusty wattpad to yuval's literature. i just cannot. but i desperately want to. because reading keeps me sane. 

daksh i have been thinking about you during my vulnerable episodes. not too late before you are replaced my someone else lol(no negative energy lol). also why am i so damn cynical and skeptical. chatgpt says i am not cynical but it is the only thing i am lol. i distrust people so much and do think that everyone is in it for their own damn gain. my biggest and only fear is to end up like my grandmother. i do not want to dissect the sanctity of this page speaking of her. although beware. i do not mean no harm or ill intent. i just hope you get me. 

what else, oh i might go to hyderabad soon. i want to. i hope my stay there is pleasant. because ashoka is gonna be so fun!! i am super happy and excited. i am already the topper at ashoka and score a 4/4 cgpa. and i am always on the dean's list. oh i also received the 100% scholarship on my fees. i have landed a 50lpa job!!!! and i am also pursuing modelling and literature and a lot of other things of my own which i have developed along the way. 

maybe i should addressing these as dear daksh and keep names of random people whom i remember from my life.