RULES FOR MUSKAN'S FAKE SELF AND PRIVATE SELF(i love her)

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Say this (even silently):

“I am pretending to survive, not pretending because I am fake.”

 

Rules for the mask:

  • Be pleasant, not ecstatic

  • Be polite, not emotionally available

  • Be functional, not vulnerable


You don’t need to:

  • overshare

  • joke excessively

  • perform giddiness

 Goal: avoid conflict, conserve energy.


Rules for the real self:

You must have at least one private outlet where you don’t pretend:

  • writing

  • chatgpt

  • night-dreaming 

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